Originally this post was going to be called “2018 Can Bite Me” but I figured that was a little harsh for the normal tone of my blog so I decided at the last minute to change it. Welcome to 2019 everyone! 

I’m done saying “this year is my year”, because I say it every year and guess what, no year so far has been my year. I am not saying that this year isn’t going to be your year, 2019 is full of possibilities and I am starting this post of November of 2018. My year started out pretty great; let’s just say the trajectory for the rest of the year after May has not really gone all that well. I have not currently gotten any of my New Year’s Resolutions done because this year flew passed me going 80 in a 35 mile and hour zone. Y’all 2018 has been wild, some of it was great but most of it was not so much for me and most of that is my fault. Some of it has been beyond my control but here I am sitting well before Christmas hoping that 2019 will be a better year. 

            Like I said, I’m not going to say again this year “2019 is going to be my year!” because no matter what happens 2019 is still a year of my life, for the better or for the worse and your year is what you make it. I don’t want to sit on my goals anymore, I have been saying that for years. I am going to work out, eat better, lose the weight, make more friends, get out more, live like a normal person does, get my stuff together, publish a book, and a whole host of other things that I want to accomplish in life. 

            The beginning of 2018 was fine, I moved, I met a few people who became huge parts of my life, there are some long stories there and a lot of memories that I will cherish forever. Thigs changed in the summer and from pretty much then on things have just been consistently going right downhill. 

            New Year’s Resolutions are such a crock, granted they can be guide posts to show you what you need to work on and they can be really helpful when you are trying to hit both long and short term goals. But I don’t want to call them resolutions anymore because I am not going to resolve anything by finishing my resolution. Writing down goals in a book without a plan or posting them on Facebook just makes them words on a page, I don’t want goals as words on a page any more. I want results, I want to prove to myself and everyone else in my life that I can do something. I don’t want to tell people my goals because guess what, the moment I tell someone something I lose motivation to do it and I am done losing my motivation in 2019. 

            I don’t know what this year is going to hold me, (as I write this in early November.) but here is me standing, rather sitting and hoping that 2019 will be a year that I look back on and say “wow, that was a really great year. Maybe it even was my year.” 

            So happy New Year everyone and I hope that you reach all of your goals this year, no matter what they are. You want to lose the weight; cool I am with you. You want to eat better; cool I am with you. You want to make more art; cool I am with you. This year is full of 365 new possibilities, though now we are down to 360 because I am posting this on the fifth of the month. Still, 360 is a lot, it’s all of the degrees in a circle and by the time we get to the other end of this year I hope I can say that 2019 was a different result than 2018.

            I am making a promise to myself to at least post two days a week and I am really trying to stick with that goal because I did pretty well some months last year but my consistency was not there and I really want it to be there this year. 

            Got any goals? 

            -MJ